Honestly, making this website has both been way easier, and way harder than I thought it would be. This website is created to be user friendly and allows me to do pretty much exactly what I want to do with it. My technical skills (or lack thereof) was surprisingly not a hindrance to building this website.
Most of my frustration actually comes from my personal life. While CCtP is my first major passion project that I actually invested both extensive time, effort, and money into; CCtP also came at a time when I happen to have the most stressful job I've had in my life. The time that I have off I feel the need to do very medial and mindless things to take the edge off, which sadly leaves what I really want to be productive about (researching and making quality CCtP content, and creating this website) on the backburner.
I so wish I could be one of those people that can power through a full workday, get home, cook, workout, and continue to put energy and effort into my passions; but sadly I can't. I've been a victim of bottling and compiling stress far too many times in my life. One of the biggest and best lessons I've learned is the need to decompress and destress on a regular basis. Unfortunately, the making my first podcast, and my personal craving for everything I do to be absolute perfection (even if it's my first time) combines together to pressure me into trying to quickly learn and perfect skills that are difficult to quickly learn and perfect. That in itself made it so I haven't been able to be able to create without also creating stress. Which is all really just a long winded way of saying that; I wish I could get to the point in which podcast and website creation is a way for me to unwind and destress, but currently, it's not.
With all that being said, this blog post is really just me stalling the completion of this website, (which I wanted up and running around a month or two ago) and to create a first post on this freeform blog for both myself and Dylan to talk to you guys in another format as separate entities. I hope this becomes a place for us to talk a little about some random stuff going on with us or to update you guys on cool stuff we think you guys might like.
P.S. Also wanted to say sorry for the long wait for things, I have a internal need for perfection and that need clashes hard with being new at something that I quickly being intensely passionate about, and want to get just right.
-Tony Lo